stranger holding me from head to toe,
This deaf usurper I shall never know,
Who lives in household quiet in my unrest,
And of my troubles weaves his tranquil nest,
Who never smiles or frowns or bows his head,
And while I rage is insolent as the dead,
... and (is my) only enemy.
Muir (The Private Place)
The problem of trying to describe the indescribable in terms of the effect
of spiritual intrusion is matched equally by the difficulties inherent
in trying to answer the question - 'who' are the intruders, and where
and how do they originate? Frankly, if I could answer that question
with complete certainty, I would be the very first to do so since the
question was first posed, since humanity had its first philosophical thought.
Many individuals, organisations and theologies believe that they have
answers, and, from within the answers, a perceived core of similarity
emerges. All presuppose the survival after death of the 'soul' or 'spirit'.
The quality of life and the manner of dying are credited with having an
effect upon the 'destination' of the released spirit. Death in accident,
trauma, suicide and battle are alleged to create a so-called 'earthbound'
spirit. Such are believed to stay close to the location of their dying
and to be unable to realise that they are, in fact, dead. Some, it is
said, attach themselves to living people and become, in effect, an inadvertent
intruder, still hopelessly lost.
Those who die at home or in hospital may, by the very nature of their
previous life, be strongly attached to individuals, places or to particular
activities, and may, in death, seek an appropriate place or person. Alternatively,
the very act of dying may leave them so isolated that they attach to the
nearest living person, whether adult or newborn infant. In time those
in the latter two groups may realise that they are able to utilise the
mind and faculties of their 'host', and that they can create thoughts,
desires and emotions. It is quite uncanny and a revealing commentary on
the generality of humans, that just as a new method of communication is
invented, so it is swamped by individuals or groups intent upon perverting
it. The invention of photography and cinema soon were followed by the
pornographic picture and 'blue' movie. Printing gave an open channel for
erotica. Citizens' Band radio was swamped rapidly by the intrusive obscenity
and worse, while the Internet - yes the Internet.
The Internet provides an ideal analogy of the spiritual link into the
human mind. As I have become more confident and fluent in my ability to
access the Internet and e-mail, so much more comes to light than I had
anticipated. With e-mail comes 'spam'. Many will have experienced having
their mail in-box flooded with these unwanted intrusions. In my case,
it appears that the Server that I use has had its lists of subscribers
entered and circulated widely, (assuming that the Server itself has not
sold the information). Now, every time that I open my in-box, I find that
there are several entries from totally undesirable and definitely unwanted
sources. Do I want to enlarge my penis? Almost daily there are offers
of products guaranteed to accomplish this. Do I want to see college girls
masturbating, or having lesbian encounters? Just enter. Do I want to get
in touch with bored housewives, all apparently ravening for sex? Sign
in for contacts. Do I want to watch live action of farm girls copulating
with animals? Why, enter in. There is no area of indecency and depravity
that is not available. And this is just on e-mail spam.
So it is, by analogy, the way in which the human mind that has been opened
and somehow entered is flooded with 'spam' by the spiritual equivalent
of the human providers of obscenity and pornography. If the offers by
e-mail of access to what are euphemistically called 'pre-teens' are taken
up, will this be the route that some follow towards the land of the paedophile?
Temptation is strewn before the curious and vulnerable. Some, it is true,
will have made an active search for web sites that offer access to their
personal predilections. Others will be drawn in having been titillated
by the images sent with the spam. Whatever the trigger, the die will be
cast when the signing -in page has been completed with its all-important
credit card information.
Major religions affirm that the 'stain of sin' is always present on the
spiritual image of a person, and cannot even be washed away by confession
and penance. Only time and one's ultimate death will reveal whether or
not this is true. For the seeker after pornography and paedophilia, there
is no going back once the 'Enter' button has been clicked. Indelibly there
for the Cyber police to discover is the evidence of web sites accessed
and paid for. The 'stain of web sin' cannot be washed away! Whereas it
was always supposed to be GOD who saw all and meted out justice, now it
is the Cyber police and the courts.
With the creation of the Internet, a new dominion of access into, and
torment of the vulnerable mind was created and immediately colonised by
the fomenters of spiritual evil. The solitary persons, believing that
they are having surreptitious access to hitherto undreamed of images and
contacts, were nevertheless subjected to an enveloping ambience of guilt
and titillation - the one source urging in the mind that the site should
be opened, and the other heaping on an atmosphere of disquiet verging
on shame and self-disgust. When, with the sudden revelation that all was
not secret between the persons and the web site, and that high profile
prosecutions were in train, one can imagine the panic at the thought of
discovery, and simultaneously, the driving condemnation coming from the
spiritual tormentors, taunting at the shame that was about to arrive.
Certainly a number have been known to have committed suicide.
How many computers were abandoned or how many hard drives were changed,
we shall never know, but still the stain of Cyber sin remained in credit
card and phone details, and who knows what torment from unknown spiritual
sources. Many, I am sure, were the excuses or reasons given for having
had access to images of the young. The most blatant seems to have been
'for study purposes', or 'research for my new book'. The rest I'll leave
to your imagination, though to come back to the human world and leaving
briefly the Cyber spiritual, I suddenly recalled from the back of my memory
an example of how the study of pornographic images changed the life progress
of one student.
It is some time since I read A Narrow Street by Elliot Paul. Set
in Paris in the 1930's, Paul relates an episode where a young habitué
of the Street, a student, had virtually abandoned his work in mathematics
and spent much time at 'Le Pannier Fleuri' - the local brothel. There
he became absorbed in studying the volumes of photographs kept to titillate
and stimulate the clients. In time the student became so enthralled at
the numbers of permutations and combinations of men, women and animals
engaged in copulation that he was inspired to return to his mathematic
studies! Perhaps this might be a flavour of the 'reasons' given for 'studying'
sites portraying paedophilia!